Unhappy Camper

I received this email from a friend of mine about a week or so ago, and at the time I just archived it and told her that I would think about it. Well, here is the email, minus addresses and such to protect the people’s privacy, in its entirety.

The verdict is in.  I know at least four people (Brittnee, Teresa, Ed, and me) that recognize how creative you are.  You easily get down on yourself, but you must at least recognize this talent in you?  You have a lot of potential.  So Brittnee and I were wondering out loud on our walk back to the cars, what will you do with this?  What do you want to do with this?  I don’t know the details, but I know you have a past that is dragging you down.  That is in the past, though.  Let that go, and grab the present moment.  You are healthy and young and creative.  Yes, with no prospects for an awesome job.  There is the Miami opportunity… was it $60 now?  No one can make something from nothing.  You know the story of Cinderella’s fairy godmother…  The awesome StoryTale Theater version I watched over and over when I was little had the line “You can’t make something from nothing, child!  Let me see, those mice will do…”  Start with $60 (mice money ) and you can save up for what you need for brighter future, food of course, but a haircut, bus ticket, and other interview supplies.  Brittnee and I think reading books all day sounds awesome, but you are bored of that, so work one day a week, think about what you would could be better using your talents for, and see where that takes you.  Continue writing the blog, that is awesome.  My dreams for you are things like making crepes at that little shop in Ft Lauderdale and writing stort stories and novels on the side.  Maybe the books become successful, or maybe the crepe-flipping and good work references strengthens your resume enough to land you a pastery-chef position at a nice restaurant?  What do you think?  Do you have similar dreams?  If so, combined with your creativity and the mice money, that can spark something big.  You have friends on your side, too, and that’s not nothing.  =)

So, yesterday I went to Miami, to talk to a guy about a job renting chairs on the beach. That is the job that is referred to above. He informed me that he already had someone for the position, and that he would keep me in mind. I know people say I shouldn’t be getting down on myself so much, but how can I do that, when it seem every chance that I take, I get a door slammed in my face. I know that the right thing to do is get up and try again, but let me tell you it sure don’t get any easier.

Yes, I would love to become successful and have a story to tell about how I made it back from being poor and on the streets. But when will this happen? Why do I have to wait so long for my chance at happiness again? And what did I do to deserve what I am dealing with now?

Anyone have some inspiration for me, I would appreciate a little.